~CARWYN BLESSED LOVE~

Live like we're dying

2009-12-09T23:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Until it's to late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would've done?

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start picking it
Every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There will no one on the line

We never know a good thing until it's gone

深感其受

2009-12-04T00:48:00.002+08:00

终于感受到了吧？
但我相信，
对你而言只是皮肉之苦。
我的是心灵的折磨
谢谢

its a brilliant night

2009-12-03T17:41:00.005+08:00

Millions of stars above the sky
A stream of thought flow through my mind
Blood pumps through my heart
I could hear my soul speaking
Cold wind slaps my face over and over again
I hide under the blanket
Hug the bolster tight
The star blink to me
Said its time to sleep
Then I heard the sky crying
I smell its tears...

And for the first time
I slept so well
Hey december baby
The true love is here again,

There ain't gonna be nightmare, no more.
good night.

2/12/09

2009-12-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

we sang, we watched, we talked ^^
her voice is still so soft yet high-pitched, he still likes to sing OLD songs
and my voice was kinda damaged..
i know u guys hate me for selecting all those songs
I suck in singing..but..haha..i have got the mood!!!!!
yup, I love it when all of us sang 'i gotta feeling' and 'peng you' together XD
and yeah..new moon, so so..
i hate edward (loonhan is right)
and for me Bella is indeed the sucker
Jacon is my fav I LOVE HIM but not his so unbalanced body!!!
and those werewolves were all like indon kampung zai
always naked-upper-body and three quarter jeans
OMIGOD! reminds me of kahfai..(no offence, wink wink)
hmm..for me the talking part was the most precious one.
and we talk about the past
about school
about...F.R.I.E.N.D.S
talked what and how we are gonna be in the next few years
we gonna be so rich
we gonna have a big gathering..we gonna have parties next year
we go club together, or we go zoo together? haha
years later we gonna leave each other
in the airport we gonna fill our eyes with tears
we also talked about our relationships
current and past, and the -will be-
oh ya, i found many so-called 'similarities' with dailou tx.
and..we apologized! thats stupid wei.
we used to be so damn-ass!!!! and many of them used to be so damn-ass too!!!
well..big laugh..and big sigh~~too, hehe
slept over in Jeans house..
my god..the can't-be-closed-gate seriously freak me out..
i thought there were villains out there!!!!! waiting for us to be trapped!! haha
neewwaayy...
it was a great day indeed.
had a great night sleep, without nightmares anymore..

p/s: who wants to go zoo? not ZOUK !!!!!

we come together

2009-12-03T16:03:00.005+08:00

A talk on the past
An awaking from the mistakes
A talk on the future
A hope to life.

We will stay friends together, right?

还是这里的人，才能将心比心·

girls, LISTEN UP YO!! "he is just not that into you!"

2009-11-25T15:56:00.004+08:00

few days ago i read a book. 'he is just not that into you', if im not mistaken. well, though it sound rude and impolite, but 90 percent of it sound really true..and it kinda reminds me of something..girls are too easy to be bullied eh? girls are weak eh? maybe we are..and yes, of course we are, I am..anyway, I hope this could make a difference..girls..just..don't be too afraid to make things right..some guys out there are Jerk! you make your life..choose the right one ^^

-oh sure,they say they are busy. They say they didn't have even a moment in their insanely busy day to pick up the phone. It was just THAT crazy. Bullshit. With the advent of cell phone and speed dialing, it is almost not possible not to call you.

-If I were into you, you will be bright spot of my horribly busy day. Which would be a day which I would never be too busy to call you.

-The word 'busy' is the Weapon of Mass Destruction. It seems like a good excuse, but in fact, in every silo you uncover, all you're going to find a man who didn't care to call. Remember. Men are never too busy to get what they want.

-Don't be with someone who doesn't do what they say they are going to do.

-If he creates expectation for you, and then doesn't follow through on little things, he will do the the same for big things. Be aware of this and realize that he is okay with disappointing you.

-'Busy' is another word for 'asshole'. 'Asshole' is another word for the guy you are dating.

-I know. Every two weeks, once a month, seeing someone, having a little love and affection may help you get through the day or the week or the month-but will it help you get through a lifetime?

-Bad boys are actually bad.

-If he only wants to see you, talk to you, have sex with you, etc., when he is inebriated, it ain't love-it is sport.

-Some cheaters might give you some excuse, some might not have one at all, some might even blame you. No one can tell you exactly what to do when faced with this complicated and painful situation. But the bottom line is, is this what you had hoped for in a relationship?

-It doesn't count unless he says it when he is a sober. An 'i love you' while under the influence of anything stronger than grape juice wont hold up in court or in life.

-One hundred percent of man polled said they have never vomited in the bed on a women they were really into.

-Sometimes life is incredibly difficult and painful. If you are looking for a partner to share your life with, its better to pick someone who is able to meet it headlong with his full faculties.

-Cheating gets easier every time it is done. It is only hard for the first time, when one feels the sting of morality and the feel of betraying someone's trust.

-Cheaters never prosper. (Because they suck)

-One hundred percent of man polled said that they have never accidentally slept with anyone. (But many of them wanted to know how this accident could happen, and how they can get involved in such an accident.)

-There is no excuse for cheating. Let me say it again. There is no excuse for cheating. Now you say it. There is no excuse for cheating.

-Cheaters are people who have a lot of stuff to work out. And they are working it out on your time and with your heart.

-Let's call cheating what it is: a complete betrayal of trust.

-If something is wrong in a relationship, here is a bright, mature idea: Talk about it. Don't let any man blame you for his infidelity, ever.

-Cheating is bad. Not knowing why you cheated is even worse. If one red flag isn't enough for you,how about two? Don't date with any man who doesn't know why he does things.

-Do all his apologies count for something? Well, you can choose to believe he is sorry. You can choose to believe he will change. But in my book, lying, cheating or hiding is the exact opposite behavior of a man who's really into you.

-And in case he tells you that it just 'happened', please remember, cheating doesn't just 'happen'. It is not an accident as in, 'Oops, I just slipped and fell into a sexual relationship with someone else.' It was planned and executed with the full knowledge that i might end your relationship.

-People ell you who they are all the time. When a man says he can't be monogamous, you should believe him.

-Twenty out of the twenty men polled said, without hesitation, that they have never been really into a woman who they didn't want to have sex with.

-Learn it, live it, like it, love it: If a man likes you, he is going to want to have sex with you. Sure, things may slow down in a long relationship, but even then, its a joy, a gift, and your right to have a fantastic sex life.

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2009-11-22T16:14:00.006+08:00

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messages

2009-11-21T01:03:00.003+08:00

i look at those messages again and again
we used to be so innocence
and..i can still feel the current that flow through my body in that moment
i still remember every seconds we had
i miss you a lot
how are you over there?
my memories with you are so precious

ni hao ma?

four in the morning

2009-11-21T00:54:00.003+08:00

it was four in the morning
i was there lying on the bed with eyes open
i saw you in my dream
then i realized i was still breathing.....

-its so funny that sometimes we were so upset yet we aren't able to shed a single tear-

HELP

2009-11-20T00:51:00.004+08:00

emotionally breakdown
blood dripping down from heart
wondering why i was here when i shouldn't be here
every smile is a fake
i should have slowed down, why didn't i?
i despise you.
helpless and alone standing on an island
so upset with your own life
you have NOTHING
you shouldn't be here
why did you bring me here
when you couldn't give me anything that i want from you?
in the mirror i see nothing but a broken heart.

IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU. IHATEYOU.

was

2009-11-20T00:37:00.005+08:00

i see things
it reminds me of you.
i taste things
it reminds me of you.
i hear things
it reminds me of you.
i smell things
it reminds me of you.

i remember them, they, you, him, he, she, her
everything was a memory.

OOPS, I was a memory, too.

suffocating, i am

2009-11-20T00:22:00.004+08:00

seriously out of track lately
have been thinking a lot
i don't want all this
a part of me is lost
trying to gain it back but i just COULDN'T
can't help myself thinking and
DOUBTING
i don't wanna be here
i don't want all this
this is just not anything that i love
there's no gravity to pull me back to the ground again
i feel so lost
i want my soul back
where the hell am i now?
why did i choose all this fucking stuff to suffer myself?
what the bloody hell have to done to yourself?

SUFFOCATING

I'm an Ocean

2009-11-17T20:48:00.001+08:00

You are impressive and fascinating.
People are drawn to your glory.
You are a profound and passionate person.
You are boundless in your power.
You have a philosophical and poetic soul.
You take a lot of time to reflect.
You are mysterious and captivating.
You are too deep for anyone to figure out.

the third month

2009-11-16T22:56:00.004+08:00

after the third month,
both of you come to a point which you realize why you like each other
the first three months are actually blind.

-shout from the heart-

can you hear me?

boy likes girl
girl likes boy
-a simple,yet complicated theory-

Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra 2009

2009-11-12T00:14:00.003+08:00

the very first time i went for an orchestra! ^^
Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra 2009 in KLCC!
went there with CF gang, hooray!! @@
cant believe bren was there too..haha..fate brought him to me lol^^
thought i was over-dressed but luckily i wasn't..
took LRT there..quite weird actually..haha
anyway, the music was fantastic!!
melody that cleanse your soul
it makes my heart so pure
didn't fall sleep like others did!
oh ya..the hall was damn silent! its DAMN SILENT
i repeat DAMN SILENT!
all the musicians were so pro..greatly impressed!!!!
i love orchestra, which i never knew i actually like it.
i hope
I CAN LISTEN TO THE LORD OF THE RINGS ORCHESTRA someday^^
cheers and hooray!

这样的爱，你要吗？

2009-11-11T14:56:00.004+08:00













柏拉图式的爱情

是精神上的恋爱,但没有肉体上的结合。
一种永久,不求回报的爱.
有些人,上帝给了他们缘分,让他们相遇,但是却忘了给他们交点,
于是这份爱,只能变成远远的守望,
而这两个人,也将永远如同平行线一般,不能在一起. 

有一天，柏拉图问老师苏格拉底什么是爱情？
老师就让他先到到麦田里去，摘一棵全麦田里最大最金黄的麦穗来，
期间只能摘一次，并且只可向前走，不能回头。
柏拉图于是按照老师说的去做了。结果他两手空空的走出了田地。
老师问他为什么摘不到？

他说：因为只能摘一次，又不能走回头路，
即使见到最大最金黄的，因为不知前面是否有更好的，所以没有摘；
走到前面时，又发决总不及之前见到的好，原来最大最金黄的麦穗早已错过了；
于是我什么也没摘。 
老师说：这就是“爱情”。

之后又有一天，柏拉图问他的老师什么是婚姻，
他的老师就叫他先到树林里，砍下一棵全树林最大最茂盛、最适合放在家作圣诞树的树。
其间同样只能砍一次，以及同样只可以向前走，不能回头。
柏拉图于是照着老师的说话做。今次，他带了一棵普普通通，
不是很茂盛，亦不算太差的树回来。
老师问他，怎么带这棵普普通通的树回来，
他说：“有了上一次经验，当我走到大半路程还两手空空时，
看到这棵树也不太差，便砍下来，免得错过了后，最后又什么也带不出来。”
老师说：“这就是婚姻！”

人生就正如穿越麦田和树林，
只走一次，不能回头。
要找到属于自己最好的麦穗和大树，
你必须要有莫大的勇气和付出相当的努力。

当人类没有对肉欲的强烈需求时，心境是平和的，
肉欲是人性中兽性的表现，是每个生物体的本性， 
人之所以是所谓的高等动物，是因为人的本性中，
人性强于兽性，精神交流是美好的、是道德的．

现在的人往往都忘了这一点。
柏拉图式的爱情，你要吗？

FORD super model of the world 2009

2009-11-10T23:51:00.006+08:00

on last sunday 8/11/09 carwyn went for a model search in LOT10.

FORD super model of the world 2009!!!
got this info from bren..went there just for fun and unprepared.
IM so tiny!! saw lots of professional models over there
SLIM SEXY TALL! wow..damn jealous wei~~
I was one of the shortest among them..
well well..did manage to get into the second audition but not the 25 finalists..
which will be on TV!
oh ya..saw Amber Chia..she is freaking slim and...has a weird look however
but still sexy (giggles)
'unshamefully' i was the first one to be eliminated..LOL..haha
though went there just for fun but i have to admit that
I LOST 90% of my confidence..
that feeling wasn't great at all..
anyway..trying to gain it back.
i believe i could somehow do other things better ( but not A level XD )
cheerss!!!
congrats to my dear
i wont forget the way Amber announced the result.
feel so happy and proud of him.^^

jia you carwyn!! @@

原始的爱

2009-11-06T22:05:00.004+08:00

你们的欢笑和泪水是勾起我回忆的诱饵

你们的欢呼与喝彩唱出我心中的歌

说再见吧

但心依然不会分离

那是最原始的爱

我依然很爱妳

-回到母校很多感触，原来我们已经长那么大了-

-时间的速度，比恐怖还可怕-

妆。装

2009-11-04T01:19:00.003+08:00

胭脂水粉
化了一脸浓妆

拍上天真的腮红
画上虚伪的眼线
再涂上罪恶的口红

瑕疵
一个一个被遮盖

血是黑的
心是死的

-你到底怎么了？-

hard

2009-11-03T19:45:00.004+08:00

Did very bad in Chemistry
seriously lack of time.
and stomach-ache.
Hell!
So damn down and feel like giving up
but Siva,
don't worry im just kidding..
i wont commit suicide just because of a paper with chemistry question
its just a paper
I don't wanna lose my scholarship

ITS REALLY HARD

DOOMED!

follow IT

2009-11-01T14:15:00.003+08:00

we are all born to find an answer
we are all trapped
we struggle

searching the place where we really belong
searching for a corner where our heart live

why don't just ask your heart?
and

ESCAPE?

then you will know what true laughter is.

just FOLLOW YOUR HEART

Do you know ?

2009-10-30T00:26:00.005+08:00

Do you know how far I will go for YOU?
Do you know how long will I carry YOU?
Do you know how much laughters I will show to YOU?
Do you know how much tears I will have for YOU?
Do you know how touched will I be for YOU?
Do you know how hard I would bear for YOU?
Do you know how loud will I sing to YOU?
Do you know how loud will I shout to YOU?
Do you know how easy do I have to remember YOU?
Do you know how hard it is to forget YOU?
Do you know how tender will I touch YOU?
Do you know how hard will I slap YOU?
Do you know how sweet will I talk to YOU?
Do you know how evil will I curse YOU?
Do you know how soft will I be kissing you?

Do you know
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?

shh..let silence be the answer

雨天

2009-10-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

日记里的

晴
阴
雨

今天巧云的天空下雨了
被水溅湿的身体
谁又能看透我的心？

期待下一个晴

ARE

2009-10-26T16:24:00.002+08:00

We doubt because we are
A cat recognize a cat because its a cat

Things that happened always reflects back to ourselves
Like we point a finger on someone but we are actually pointing three to ourselves

yes, you ARE

humans are evil,there's no one to save us

updates??? lol...

2009-10-16T20:49:00.007+08:00

(still the same carwyn la k? never changed!)

here's some updates..of mine..lol..sound so lame,sorry..
to be accurate,this is a response to amanda..ahh whatever!
me too feel like sharing my current life..
well well..hmm..lets see..
gonna have my third exam on november..so..
im studying almost everyday..i mean..
everyday a little..like one or two pages of chemistry..
still never done any of my tutorial (as sinful as can be)
college life is kinda..diff from high school cause..
im not that active anymore..
i have wanted to be active but don't find it necessary anymore..
thats why..kinda bored and..i want a busy life..other than studies..lol
having PMS..so im sort of like...moody..haha..but still happy
and im not going back to klang for three weeks!
not having homesick though..but will miss it..lol..holy crap

(the ultimate couple bottle..yoyo guess what...girl blue guy red..)XD

(something to show off..blueekkk..i got it you dont have it! haha)

rating :
1=weak
2=average
3=ok
4=good
5=excellent

studies : 1
family : 1 (oh..weak weak)
relationship (dating) : 4
health : 2
sleep : 1
beauty : 2
laughters : 4
friendship (klang) : 3 (look forward to be improved)
friendship (college) : 3
luck : 3
money : 1
happiness : 4
stress : 5!

oh CRAPOLA...need some sleep.....need some dance...need some kiss..need some voice..need some hugs...need some shout...need some slap...need some money...need some rest..need some food...need some massage...need some song..need some

TIME!

p/s:oh yeah..thx all klang frens like mc, cy, wq,

and who-so-ever from klang

that contacted me..

seriously miss you all!!!

muacks.a big kiss

and yeap..

happy bday kaiye..hope u received my sms..